My trip to the hospital - 4 / 3 / 2025

 I just spent the last week in a psych unit. As much as I have the mentality that I am sick with schizophrenia because of people like the Meyer family. Because of Victor betraying me, and my ordeal with Sharolaid. Because of Alicia and Tori's cheating. Because of being stolen from. Because of my evil stepdad. Because of no car when I was 17 - 20. Because of my mom and things like that who I have had no contact with for like 3 years. I tell myself that I am in the boat of being paranoid schizophrenic. I can't undo anything I've done or said online to any of the sharolaid victims. The only thing I do is not participate in Sharolaid activates online like BHH facebook groups or uploading videos in the name of BHH etc. So I choose to live a new happy life away from that drama but people like my stalker and certain bhh people will choose to remind me of my ugly past. and leave me mean and hateful comments. That's fine. I walked away from a smoke and mirrors cult up the street where I felt like God was talking to me. I was stabbed in the back by Jaymz and Alex. For years people had no clue what I look like or how my living situation was. I explained I am disabled and live on 920 a month and now my food stamps recently got reduced. I plan to quit smoking cigs and black and milds still but when I came out of the hospital I did vape. Soon I plan to quit that. Addiction is hard. I am still sad about Ryan Cherry's death and the death of my friend Austin Drake Mulqueen and stuff. I will have nothing to do with Brandin Drechsler or Wesley. I don't know. NO I can not work. Because of my schizophrenia I sleep alot. I don't trust people and I have a history of having a severe anxiety disorder at my alt schools I was at. Once a year I have to get my blood drawn and once every two months I have to get an injection and being schizophrenic consists of doctor visits and once every two years I have to go to the hospital. Everybody is different. I have a permanent disability all because of a bunch of evil people that decided to beat me down early on in life when I was weak. I choose to keep going and moving in this life. For some period of time I was on some delusional mission to prove Hecate was real. Now I am living life just doing things to make me happy and walking away from the hateful Sharolaid life. The dysfuncational arrow and forbush school life and all of that and find my own place in this world. When I came home like I said I threw up and my dad got angry. I don't know. Sharolaid is my past and I plan starting today to just be me and try to learn who I am as a person.

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